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O.K.The crack in my chest is only getting bigger
The tears won't stop flowing
The memories of you just won't go away.
This pain just won't cease.
I can't take it anymore.
Everytime I see your photo
It makes me dissolve
Into another Sea of Tears.
Sharp pains again
Hole in me is growing.
Larger and Larger
With each moment,
I remember of you.
Its been so long.
So long since I have
Heard your voice.
Seen you smile.
Felt your warmth.
Worried for you.
Please make this pain go away.
Take my memories
Take my tears
Fix this crack
Make everything ok.
Make me Ok.
Homeward BoundCold bitter winds, as bitter of the faces
Of the inhabitants,of a city crying for salvation.
How I long for the bright sunlight
And the sweet smell of fresh clean air.
Yearning for times long gone.
The Past that can never return.
The darkness creeps upon my mind.
Slowly I grow weaker, succumbing to It's seduction.
It's deceit eludes my guard.
Preying on my lost soul.
I claw and struggle to find a away out.
To return to the crisp breezes I once knew.
The light that caressed me.
To return to a memory.
Demons at every turn. Leering.
Can I escape?
Or do I escape because I don't want to?
The doubts and fears turn my blood to ice.
At the thought of giving up.
Every kind word.
Every gesture of kindness
Every understanding look.
Or is it?
I am told.
My chest is in pain.
My legs are numb.
My world goes black.
My eyes see blurred faces around me.
Kind Faces. Familiar Faces
I dare to take a breath.
Still FallingA breeze travels through the air.
You have a smile on your face
As you hold me closer.
Kiss me gently on my lips.
My support though everything.
I will never let you go.
We joke and we smile.
Over memories from long ago.
And even some recent.
Enjoying the company of one another.
You kisses are what get me though the rough work days
Your cynical wit gets me though the drama and false friends.
You make me think reasonably.
You make me weak in my knees.
I hold you closer to me.
I can't let you go yet.
I cuddle closer.
And you snuggle right back.
Making me feel safe.
MirrorsWhat is that I see in the mirror?
Surely that cannot be me.
Its so different than the me I have known for so many years.
I remember hair thick, pulled back,
Eyes pleading to be loved.
Muffing Tops and Buns.
That is the me I remember.
I look again at the model before me.
Smiling her pearly whites.
Hair stylishly in her face.
Body and looks to Kill
Outfit to die for.
Which is me?
Or is this just a dream?
Or a possibly a reality?
Or a past?
No more scars,
No more Acne.
I want to be this so badly.
What if this isn't me?
I Miss You.I find myself mesmerized by the skies of white and blue.
I can't help but look at every American flag on the side of the road.
Thinking of what you lived, you breathed, and you loved, for 21 years.
You loved freedom.
You loved life.
You loved making yourself known.
That's why I miss you so.
I see you everywhere I go.
I can't run away.
I miss you, why can't you come back?
21 years wasted in this world,
I am missing a part of myself.
Time and Time AgainSnow is fluttering to the grown.
Staining the green with its cleanliness.
Its white is so pure, so fresh.
Never stepped in before.
I look away from the snow for only a moment.
And in that moment it was like I was born a new.
My eyes cannot leave it.
Because I am looking at you.
Your eyes bore into mine.
They are such a beautiful blue.
I find myself trapped.
Yet I do not mind.
I want you to keep me forever.
I want to wake up every morning
And find you there.
Time and time again, I want to see your face.
Time and Time again I want to be held in your arms.
Time and Time again I want to feel your kisses.
Time and time again...
I want to look at you like it was the first time
Skyline MuseSkyline Muse
vistas of sylvan charms
cross my vision as we drive through art,
a mural of green flags
across a watercolor(ed) canvas.
with her arm out the window
the wind holding her tresses
in a tempestuous tenure,
she looks back at me
and flashes her beaming smile
as we drive towards the peak
aiming to hit the highest mark.
the gravel road rolling under turning tires,
we move up and up,
the sun falling the higher we go.
we always envisioned arriving here at sundown
and it’s yawning now,
so it’s only a matter of time
before it must tuck itself in for the night.
so when we reach crown of the mountain
and park the hardtop near the edge of the crest.
jewel encrusted skies tease auburn blankets
as the stars are finally materializing incarnate,
it’s almost heavenly to see the body
merge from fervor markers to cool ink.
the draft was a signal of the art just beginning,
feet moving across clay as we dangle soles
over the edge of the earth as the day
puts on its hoodie
twenty-threescars are like tattoos
no matter how
they got there, you still
like the look of them.
twenty-twoyou aren't supposed to bury your children.
but if you're the one that killed them,
i guess it doesn't matter
HappyWake up be positive
Going to have an amazing day
Watching my babies is going to be a joy
Even if I have to force myself I am going to be happy today
Not going to worry about anything but being with my little family
little thingsI don’t want to be the wind beneath your wings
or any other monumental things
I wish to be feathers
(a hand to hold,
a gaze to meet
a place at night
to dream in peace)
so you can still fly
intentyou didnt mean that
dont say things you dont mean
things like that
theyll catch up to you
your heart isnt the only one hurting
so dont try to hurt another
its probably already been done
but it still hurts
you meant it?
i dont think you did
you wouldnt mean something like that
you wouldnt feel something like that
how could you say something like that
you loved her
i still do
i know it didnt work out
it ended pretty badly actually
to be honest id hate to be you right about now
but dont just
pass that onto someone else
that horrible feeling
is it only mine?
what do you mean its her fault?
are you listening to yourself?
you sound like an idiot
a cruel idiot
why would you say that
where is your heart
look what youve done
look what youve caused
this didnt have to happen
it didnt have to be like this
it didnt have to end like this
things could have been different
You are not a loneHey you
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone
You may be going through some hard shit and you think no one in the world is going through some hard times
But I bet if you ask anyone they have gone through the same thing or maybe worse
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone
You do not have to go down a road that I went through
Don't pick up that bottle or the pills Don't use a razor or think of suicidal
Right now you might think that no one will give a fuck if you take your own life
But I bet plenty of people will care even if they do not act like it
I just wanted to let you know that you are not a lone
It will get better I promise might take a while but it will
It might also get worse but it will always get better
You are not a lone
DaisyHere lays a flower;
A daisy so fragile
Broken and torn beyond repair.
Here lays a shard;
Of her broken, broken heart
It's left her with nothing but despair.
Here, lay her body,
Her tiny shrivelled body,
To be swallowed by the earth
That which had birthed her.
I love you
I know at times we have not been close
But I am glad that we are getting closer
I know that you have gone through a lot of stuff but I just wanted to tell you that I am proud of you that you got the courage to do what you had to do
I am glad that you are finally happy
I love you
The PlayThe air is frigid, and snow covers all.
I freeze in my footsteps,
Surrounded by white I am
I feel misplaced, and oh so wrong.
the only darkness in this purity.
The only flaw, on this perfect Stage.
The only one who doesnt know thier lines.
In this play of perfection.
Constantly making mistakes,
Never being good enough.
Again and again, I rehearse,
Retrace the steps, repeat the lines.
They go through my head,
The way the blood goes thorugh my veins,
In order to seek approval,
This is what I must do.
I go to the first scene,
Taking my place on the stage,
The curtain begins to rise.
So many thoughts go through my head,
Snow litters the stage
It goes cold.
I begin to move in my dark Attire.
Everyone begins to move in the dance.
I step out and continue on my own.
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